It’s not like I’m going to wear it again….maybe…

After several weeks of talking about it, I finally cleaned out the front hall closet yesterday. Not just a “here, shove things around, where’s your winter boots, oh THERE’S the umbrella” kind of cleaning. No, this was a real take everything out/pile it all in the living room/sort through/be merciless/throw things out/nothing’s going back in there that doesn’t serve a purpose kind of cleaning.

Even vacuumed the cobwebs from the ceiling. When’s the last time you looked at the ceiling of your front hall/coat closet?

We last painted the front room just before the baby was born and the hall closet didn’t get painted because painting closets is a hassle. The baby will be 12 on Thursday.

Wait, that can’t be right.

Damn. Now we’ll have to paint the front room, won’t we?

Anyway.  Even the Girl with The Knee commented on her way out today, “Hey, you can see right to the back of the closet!”

So, the benefit of being the one that cleans the closet is that I didn’t have to fight for the right to put my Levi jacket back in it.  My “jean jacket” if you will.

When I was a teenager, I aspired to have a jean jacket. Pretty sad, huh? I can remember, on the high school band trip, scouring the malls of Montreal in search of a jean jacket. I can remember that the hubby had three – a white one, a black one and a blue one. And eventually, early on, before he was even The Boyfriend, he bought me the bleached denim Levi jacket that looked exactly like the one in the front hall closet. Jean jackets were tough, they were cool. Leather jackets were for bad girls – jean jackets were for girls that just wanted people to think they were bad.

Jean jackets were staying out ’til the wee small hours, hanging around the pinball machines, driving to London for a cup of coffee just because. Jean jackets were loud music and laughter and boys and tears. Jean jackets were carnivals and mall food courts and movie theatres.

For a while, jean jackets were even the thing that said, “Sure you’re someone’s mom, but you’re still a PERSON. And a matching jean jacket for your two-month old is a perfectly reasonable purchase.”

It has been at least 15 years since I last wore a jean jacket, and the one in the front closet isn’t it. However, a few years ago, this one appeared in the house and since it LOOKS exactly like the one I lived in throughout my teens, I’m keeping it.

Because, you see, that’s who I was, and it’s important for me to remember that. There isn’t a single solitary “today” thing about my life that I would trade for the messed-up, clueless and self-absorbed teenager that I was, but that doesn’t mean she’s not still inside me.  I’ve changed a lot, but I’ve either kept, or rediscovered all the good bits – the creativity, the passion, the hope – and learned how to make the most of them without the messed-up, clueless, self-absorbed part.

But I’ve promised the kids I won’t wear it. I still think jean jackets are pretty cool, but the grown-up I’ve become is way cooler.


10 Responses to “It’s not like I’m going to wear it again….maybe…”

  1. slsherwood Says:

    I have a jean jacket hanging in my closet too. Faded blue jean, and it has been a while since I wore it. It is not the one I wore as a teen.

    When I was a teen, I had the faded blue jacket, but I also had a pink jean jacket. It was a Swartz jacket, I think (like the watch). Matching pink narrow-legged jeans too.

    And I think jean jackets will be back soon, and they may something a bit different.

    It can happen. Why just last year I was telling my oldest she would soon be begging to wear narrow-legged jeans. She didn’t believe me. Now she would like a pair in yellow please.

  2. kim Says:

    We do not want Keith to hear that Jean Jackets are coming back. I finally convinced him to donate his black Levi jacket that had seen better days. It took years for me to do this.(read as I got rid of when he wasn’t looking)

  3. Keith Wilson Says:


  4. kim Says:

    When we were suit shopping the other night, we took a stroll though the men’s causal department. Racks and Racks of…Jean jackets.
    Of course Keith saw them and had to point them out. Perhaps he thinks Santa might bring him one? Well i happen to know Santa, and I am of the opinion that there is NO WAY that will happen.

  5. Linda Sherwood Says:

    once you were a blogger too….

  6. Angela Klocke Says:

    Linda stole my comment and thought. Once…

    Knew it was too good to be true!

  7. kim Says:

    Where are you? I know the mag. is done for the month, so no excuses…Blog lady!

  8. kim Says:

    OK, it has been A MONTH.
    WRITE lady…at this point even a cheater post will do.

  9. Angela Klocke Says:

    I remember once…back when you cared…about blogging and sharing with us. le sigh

  10. kim Says:

    Dear Santa..I would like a new blog post to read for Christmas……

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